motivation...

is hard to come by today... I've spent most of my week back and forth from doctor's appointments and PT, and tons of time at the hospital with my brother's new baby...

I woke up this morning to a call from my brother... We chatted about his hospital discharge with the baby and I hung up, set the phone on my chest and thought I'd stretch out for a few minutes more... I woke up 90 minutes later and couldn't believe the time... Thankfully, I had cancelled PT in preparation for having to help with the baby today, and because the last appointment made me feel as though my back was actually WORSE instead of better... I realized I hadn't taken my meds, and that I'd likely pay for it... well, I was right...

I've found every reason in the book not to get in the shower and even now sit here blogging/blipping/twittering/FBing/MSing all to avoid the inevitable... It's now 30 minutes before my son's bus arrives home from school, so I'm going to get in the shower NOW, but, I'll still admit it feels like I'm forcing myself to do something I shouldn't...

I don't think anyone actually reads this, but I have to say... it's therapeutic to get this crap out of my head and written down somewhere...