lost...

I am not sure that my life will ever be "normal"... Or maybe I don't know what "normal" is anymore...

I've spent the last several years sifting through piles of books, research reports, private and public resources, doctor's opinions, schooling options... none of it fits and none of it makes sense... it never seems to "add up" and it never seems that anyone has any answers to the same questions...

It all comes down to one question though...

How can I help my son?

I call one agency and they refer me to another agency that "might be better suited to help in OUR situation"... What is our situation?

We have a loving, caring, charismatic and brilliant child with an IQ that's off the charts... with ADHD, coupled with some behavioral, anxiety and mental health issues that don't fit into a specific "category" or diagnosis...

I'm sick of fighting for something when I don't even know what "IT" is that I am fighting for... My son is the most important person in the world to me... Yet I don't know what to do to make him happy, or make him succeed...

I don't think that I could be any more lost than I am right now... I told my son't principal that I was raising the white flag and resorting to begging for help... I don't think that it's going to make a difference... But, I suppose that I'll find out next week whether or not begging is the answer...

Maybe someone will surprise me... maybe someone will find an answer... or at least offer a suggestion that provides some relief...